November 17th, 2021
How do you describe to anyone what it’s like to walk away from everything before viral pandemic and global shutdown?
The months leading up to the 2020 lockdown were a time of personal breakthrough; a time of vivd lucidity in both dream world and waking life and the end of a fear loop.
Over the summer I had designed and directed an 8-piece stage show bringing together a musical collective of friends from a diverse range of backgrounds spanning theater, radio, live music and more. As band leader I was faced with ongoing improvisation, innovating tools and revising show elements to make the most of our collective talents. It was hard work for all of us, with an ambitious production schedule and multiple rehearsal locations. We all pushed ourselves outside of the comfort zone and picked up new skills and knowledge in the process and after weeks of practice and rehearsing as a group we walked out onto that stage together and shined.
And then I disappeared.
And it was alone in the darkness that I found truth and began healing from a long-held fear of sharing my light.